this hellish dreaded pain constricting me knocks me so low; i cannot stand beneath it, cannot breathe, cannot bear this.
i've been having a rough morning. getting rougher with the passing hours. and i've been doing all i can. but it is weighing heavier, and the effort is too much.
intellectually i KNOW that this is not forever, that i will and am getting thru this. but that knowledge is not informing my feelings, which are just so devastating and getting worse all morning. i hate this. i hate to be talking about it. i hate dealing with this.