busy update

Today, I ran some errands.  I went to see my counselor, who is going on maternity leave starting next week.  It was a very good session, no loss of control, no tears, and a minimum of pain in a safe place.  Excellent.

Then I went to a few other places before I stopped by to see a close friend who loves my haircut and kept saying at random times throughout our visit that it was too cute and suited me.  I know that, but it makes me feel good when someone gives me sincere compliments. 

Then I stopped by to see a friend who gave me some very unexpected news.  He did measurements on me cuz it's been awhile since he last saw me, and he's a fitness instructor and/or personal-trainer (i can't remember his exact title).  He noticed that I kept tugging up my waist band; these are shorts I bought two weeks ago (first shorts i've boughten in years and years).  So he asked lots of questions to make sure I'm taking care of me and not being unhealthy/harmful to myself.

See, I've never been a self-mutilator, cutting on myself, or whatnot.  I've never allowed any addictions to take control.  I do love food, and am overweight, but I don't gorge and I don't binge and purge,etc.  I'm very mindful of taking care of me cuz I respect myself and love me.  If I feel like I might even been on the edge of danger, I correct.  I do lots of self-monitoring cuz if I don't, my mania gets the best of me.  Let alone any other harmful behaviors or health issues.  So I'm ok, not in danger of being in danger.

I said all that so that you don't think, danger.will. robin.son.danger.  Cuz I'm fine with fluids, meds, sleep, exercise, etc.  k?

Last time I was to the gp, I weighed about *215*.  Now, I weigh less than 195.  I don't intend to keep up that rapid weight loss.  I don't intend to gain any of it back tho.  He said that for my size, body frame, height, and all, that a minimum ideal weight for me at this time would be about 150.

Now, I gotta go sew a few darts into my brand new shorts.  And no, I can't take them back.  I accidentally bleached them.  See youse later.

author's note:  {*215* the picture in the left "about me" bar shows me at the spring equinox '08, about eighteen weeks ago; i was 215 then.  i stayed right around that weight til about a week ago, when i went to the gp regarding an unrelated matter}