I've hallucinated. Ya know, when I'm feverish. Then, I see stuff sometimes. It's not a problem, cuz it doesn't confuse me and make me all like, dude, didja see that?!?!
I've never heard voices, tho.
Til a few months back. I was having an extremely difficult time sleeping. My sleep meds weren't working and I was going outta my mind. Mania kicked in and I was definitely wired and tired.
Now I live on a five hundred acre farm. There are a few other renters out here, but for the most part, it is like I am on my own in a very quiet peaceful world. And that is just the way I like it.
Except that night, a few months back. I was sitting quietly. And then, I realized, I was hearing voices. It was like a radio on low. I could hear voices conversing or singing. A low continuous hum that ebbed and flowed in pitch, but no discernible words. So I start to strain to hear, and I check my radio (off), my tv (off), my clock/alarm/radio (off), and my computer (off). Now I am getting a little frantic. So I unplug ev.ree.thing. And I can still hear the damned voices.
This goes on for weeks. When I couldn't sleep, some nights, I would be holding still and then I would hear it. Voices. A cacophony of voices burbling with no one clear voice coming thru.
I worried. I worried that I was having a psychotic break. I worried that there was another dimension to my mental state that was coming to the surface. Yet another problem that I would have to learn to deal with. How much more?
I put off speaking to my doctor. I didn't want to have to go thru the whole trial of diagnoses and observation and then the treatments....oh! the treatments while I went thru the adjustments of the new meds.
Then, one night, just after the new year, my guy and I returned very late to my home. And as I got out of the car, I heard the voices yet again. I dreaded revealing this new fault to my guy. He turned to me and said, "babe?" I finally looked at him, drew a deep breath, and he said, "sounds like a party down yonder."
My newest neighbor down on the pond is a drummer. In a band. At night, they practice. At night?