Slightly bewildered

Subject:  Slightly bewildered because I am experiencing conflicting feelings.  I was so tired this morning, but cozy as I wriggled further into my nest of sheets and blankets and dogs.  I slept in.  It was really, really nice to sleep in.

But I wanted to get some things done before I went for my own counseling session.  It has been over a month since I have seen my own therapist.  So I really wanted to make sure I got there on time and all.

So I called all the folks I need to call about the NAMI Support meetings.  For the group here in starkville and both groups in Columbus.  I sent a few more emails about said meetings.

I afixed more postage on certain returned envelops that I stuffed with pamphlets and letters and info sheets.  I tidied up on a few last chores I needed to do before I left for tomorrow's convention.  I felt a real sense of accomplishment, along with zinging and pinging thoughts and racing heart.

I go to counseling.  I won't go into HUGE details.  But...

I discovered that I made the paper.  My former counselor clipped it and brought it down to share it with my current counselor.  I had no idea.

I mean, I emailed info but no one contacted me.  And I don't get the paper.  A friend mentioned something a few days ago, but I thought she meant the other Debra (there really is another Debra that is a good friend to us both).

Of course, the paper and the library were both closed.  A search of the archives online yielded nothing.  So I guess I'll just wait til next week.

Then I came home and my neighbor and I took turns sledgehammering concrete and digging dirt.  Ya know what?  Flying chips of concrete leave bloody lil knicks.

So, I threw my clothes in the washer (now, they're in the dryer).  I'm gonna shower.  I'm going to bed early.

Big day tomorrow.

Mood:  Actually, tired and reflective.  But those aren't options.  Neither are.

Music:  including:  The House that Jack Built; Son of a Preacher Man; Spirit in the Dark; I say a Little Prayer; Bridge over Troubled Water; Ain't Nothing Like the Real Thing; Without Love; Eleanor Rigby; and Rock Steady.