Last night, I did something I am so not proud of. And of course, I'm sharing it when instead I could be sitting nice and pretty and keeping my mouth shut. Well, last night, I should have kept my mouth shut. sigh.
Instead, I left a score of messages (ok, that is a slight exaggeration, it wasn't twenty; it just feels like it) on my ex-guy's cell phone. cringe. I was hateful and hurtful. I mean, I was completely full of hurt and full of hate and feeling righteous rage; which all overflowed and spewed forth in a very ugly display of all sorts of feelings.
Feelings are fine, but unfortunately, I let loose and acted on those rather toxic feelings. I'm deeply ashamed and this morning, first thing, I did call and apologize. I regret having been so low and ugly.
What I said, I meant, yes. That is still no excuse for having said all that in the first place, especially in the manner which I did so. My sincere apologies were/are expressed. I realize tho that that does not excuse the actions I committed.
I'm very sorry for having been so ugly, hateful, hurtful, and low. 'Twasn't my finest hour(s). I take full responsibility for my actions.