What time is more appropriate then when the very sun seems to be hanging in the balance, to review some thoughts about life's moments on the precipice? Some choose the new year to make resolutions. Some reexamine their lives on their birthdays. Some reflect on things when some major impending scare has occurred, leaving them with the huge relief to have escaped some threat of impending doom. I say that any time is fine, including the changing of the season.
None of us can be sure of the future. We might feel we have things well in hand, expecting things to continue as they are. We might have vague or general ideas that first this and then that will occur. We might be certain of certain aspects and particulars. But the reality is, that very few things are certain in the future for each of us on a personal level.
I would like to think that we have plans and have taken the proper steps to implement those plans. I'd like to think that I've built a wonderful support network and that I am a better person for it, tho I'd like to think that if any one person were to no longer be accessible in that network, that I won't fall apart and be unable to function. I'd like to think that others value me as much as I value them.
I'm uncertain about quite a bit, actually. I'm generally ok with that at this point in my life. I'll continue to learn and become more certain about some things, I am fairly sure. But I don't feel I need to know every.signal.thing. In fact, I am quite certain that that is impossible for me.
What do I feel is hanging in the balance? At the moment, for me and my love, not much. We are not breathlessly awaiting some crucial verdict or news. Our livelihoods are not dependent on this job promotion or that medical finding. We are not wrestling with crises of faith or introspection in existential matters. Our relationship is on firm footing and we are satisfied with our present circumstances.
Sure, improvement in many areas is desired and hopefully will either continue to come about or will take place when the conditions are right for them to do so. I feel things are good for me and for my husband, as individuals and as a couple. My wish is that all is well with you and yours.